Weakness, frantically

I've been having a tough time lately. It's mild, as most of my emotions usually are, but it's there.

Aside from the craziness of server crashes and unpacking and arranging to sell the old place and buying crap that will probably turn out to be unnecessary (for the new place), I have a presentation to give to the Northern California Underwater Photographic Society on Friday, followed by a few mini-seminars in Houston next week (which also involves being in Houston next week). I haven't started thinking about any of them, but I probably should.

Thankfully, Livia is around, and I can always rely on her to meet up for a quick meal if I need to get out of the house. Time with her is very easy -- I don't have use up any real energy, and I get to hang out with someone cool. Normally, my sister and Vienna (two more people with non-standard work hours) help me to take my mind off of work as well, but Wendy moved away and Vienna is off on tour again. Vienna still managing to be supportive from wherever-she-is-between-California-and-New-York, though, and I appreciate that a lot. :)

Also nice is that I've been patronizing the arts again, with trips to see the SF Symphony play Mahler 9, Phillipe Quint perform in Palo Alto, and hopefully (tonight), a jazz cabaret featuring Stephen Prutsman (who keeps asking me if I have "any babes" when I see him). I even picked up the cello for a bit today, which was long overdue. Music is good.

And now, about girls: I don't know if it's because it's been so long since I've had a girlfriend, or if it's because this is the first time I've had a couple of weeks at "home" in ages, of if it's because I actually have a home again, but I'm starting to get a little lonely! But when I think about dating, I imagine being out of town, I think about the lack of the utter freedom I've been indulging in, and I think about the ... complications that my travel schedule might inflict upon a relationship. However, I know that the right person will dispel all of my worries, so I'll just have to continue to cling to a sliver of relationship hope while letting my life unfold as I've been doing for the past few years.

I should probably re-read what I've written to see if I'm being coherent, but I have to get some images submitted to Pictopia. :)